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2012-01-02T23:31:00.000-08:00

I'll be shutting down my blog for good :)

I mean, I have my bestfriend , I have my girlfriend , friends and the boy to share all my problems w. So , I don't think there is a need for me to blog about anything.

It's been good you know to let everythin' out. Of course there is the good and the bad.

I told you I wanna be a more reserved person now. So, I'm sticking t that.

Get Real.

You can't expect the whole of 2012 to be really good and nice.

This is LIFE , what do you want more ? It's gonna be just another year.

There will be no good if there is no evil.

Your stupidity, your careless-ness,

the choices you will make will mean something somehow one day.

I'm all ready to make some changes. * fingers crossed *

I'll most def will miss blogging.

I have a life now, I wanna keep it personal.

2012-01-01T02:26:00.000-08:00

It feels really good to get to spent the first seconds of 2012 w the people you loved.

Anyway, I'm here wishing you readers a Happy New Year ! Put the past behind you and live for tomorrow! It's a good start for having the weekends off though I woke up w a total massive hang over. I feel sick.

You know what ? I actually do have a New Year's Resolution . I've managed to come out w 2 last night a few seconds before toasting w the rest.

- Get a Diploma by 2013.
- Move on from Topshop(retail line) and get a job in the office line right after Dip!

I heard that there's gonna be recession this year. So, gettin' a new job might be nearly impossible. Oh well.

Last night was at Royal Park Hotel. We were supposed to club but I was too drunk.
Again, I love my bestfriend for always being there for me :)

2011-12-25T09:13:00.000-08:00

Anyway, Merry X-mas ! Yes yes , I'm a little too late for that.
I've been neglecting a lot of my social network's stuff except for Twitter that is . Highly addictive.

5 more days to New Year's .
I had a rough beginning of 2011. So many many many shit loads of things happened.
& almost a year of not schooling, I managed t find one. A course which I'm fully interested w.
So far, class has been really good. Assignments are all manageable. Everyone is really friendly too!

I've been cutting down w my social life too. I get really tired aft school .
&& when I'm not schooling, I'll be working w the normal 8 hours shift either M or A .
Yeah , it's frustrating but I get a lot of TGIF's because now I don't work on Saturday.
I've been using it for best-friend , cousin , girlfriend(s) and the boy.

Up coming event(s) for December :

New Year's Eve w best-friend and cousin ( of course right )
S' B'day Party ( every year )
BBQ @ K's.
Zouk w the boys.

basically, I have less than a week before the year end for all these. & because I am so reserved right now, I don't put up pictures much here nor on fb.

I' did my hair. I colored it again w treatment. I wanted t chopped off my hair but everybody was against the idea of me wanting a short hair. So, my hair is like below my bra line ? It used t be near my butt. It's much better looking now, I guessed ? I'm gonna booked another appt for my fringe because I had so much chemicals in less than 5 hours. sighhhh ...

I'm turning in already. All my friends who're like " the office people" get an extra off day!

For me, I have t work on a PH. No complaints, okay ? I'm good :)

I'm gonna leave you guys a song , which is my current favorite right now.
It may not be my kind of genre but I really like it. Listen!

xoxo

2011-12-14T11:00:00.000-08:00

17 MORE DAYS TO NEW YEAR. Any New Year's Resolution ?
I don't think I will be drafting any this time round. I've learnt so much.

I'll be w my bestfriend and cousin for the eve of new year. Yes, we already have plans and reservations :)
It's cool because it's my first time celebrating it w my cousin and bestfriend at the same time! && I'm not working on that day too! It's like, I have time for hair and make - up and of course sleep! What a good start,don't you think so?

Anyway, I shall side track a little bit.

I am completely aware you will not totally forget about me but I'm sure you are over me. I was happily working and all until I had t bumped into you over at my work place. I'm sorry, if I knew that it was gonna be you, I won't even wanna walk there. I'll wait till you leave or smth. I don't feel broken hearted or what. I just felt a "missed" of what we used t be. Just a little bit. I wished I could get all the bad stuffs back so I could have the good.

Oh well, you've moved on and so eventually I did. You may have someone t fall back on and I don't which totally makes me the stronger person. But yeah, it's been a year. I'm gonna create new memories for my love life now. I'm gonna give out some love. I miss having a boyfriend and I miss being treated like a princess making me feel like the most important person in the world. Now that I'm ready, I'm gonna take a chance , risk and everythin' else.

If I fail, I know I've already given my best because not all boys are the same. xx

2011-12-08T00:37:00.000-08:00

You know, I have this bad habit of indulging myself w really good food. Gees, how can I not grow fat ? Last checked my weight was 50KG and I'm standing at height of 165 CM . I want t grow taller, please. Maybe 170? LOL. Seriously, that's not gonna happen. I'm already turning 21 next year.

Just t let you readers know, I've got someone stable right now. I've learnt a few things here and there from the past and never want t repeat it w my current. I've yet t fully open my heart but I'm pretty sure as time goes by, I'll fall for him deeper. As you know, the first few dates are always the best. Everythin' will go smoothly because you're havin' your "honeymoon" period. I don't want t say much nor do I want t display public affection . I just want t be w him and my girlfriends away from the eyes of the public. It's better t keep the doors closed at all times.

2011-12-03T19:07:00.000-08:00

It was a rainy Saturday for both us .

The theme was " something pink!"

We walked around town w our pink polka dotted umbrella. Got wet from head t toe. It's been a month since we last hang out together. She was supposed t be her boy and I had other plans at the back of mind but we both ditched that and go for each other instead! How can I not love my bestfriend ?

&& now that I'm havin' every Saturday off , I'm gonna have more time for everybody even for my blog. Only sometimes I don't feel like telling people about it. I know I'm gettin' less and less readers each day.

I need t get ready for work now . xxx

2011-12-01T09:15:00.000-08:00

Hello pretty-boys and handsome girls. Apologies for not updating much .

& we all know that December is the last month of every year. I just need time to slow down a little bit because this month is always the best month ever. I'm having my entry test tomorrow. I'm kind of nervous and scared. I mean, if I fail , I will never want t go t school ever again. I'll find a better job w a good pay. Who cares if you don't have the passion or interest. Money talks. That's all. Even if they can't buy you happiness . Trust me, it will do wonders :)

Meeting up w the girls at least once in 3 months was a success. (my kc girls) Even if it was just dinner at Simpang for less than 4 hours. I miss you girls , I miss being 16 , I miss everything else too. My bestfriend is like totally busy w her life right now. I miss her. We made a promised t meet up every Saturday twice a month.

Which by the way, I'm having every Saturday off! If you're really smart , you can go figure why do I have every weekend off . Even, if it's just one weekend! I'm currently working 4 days per week. I know right, this is like the third time I resigned from WTC. It's hard for me to let go but I know I have t let go. I just have to.

Today was just movies w Ianiie Richie. We were extremely lazy . So, both decided t go denim w leopards and covered shoes. Naked face . No hair - do , no concealer , no nothing.

Movie was Puss In Boots which was too cute, I tell you. I'm dying t watch Breaking Dawn. I really hope I don't miss it. I'll marry the person who wants to go watch w me ^.^

2011-11-26T18:07:00.000-08:00

Yes, I've been busy w the boy lately. Working on weekdays and going home before midnight every Saturdays.

2011-11-17T06:24:00.000-08:00

good evening all!

Finally, I cleared all my leaves before converting back. I've not been working since last Sunday. Too bad, I'm not gonna even talked about it. I met new people and I fun. I feel like Cinderella. Heh Heh! I have t be back home by midnight everyday.

Apologies for not gonna update what has been going on for this week :)
Some things I just want t keep it a secret.

I promise I'll update soon, okay ? God knows who's reading but hell , I try t update.

p/s: My younger brother received free tics for Zoukout 11'. I could had asked him t give me the tics since he got one pair! & the best part , I'm not allowed t go. -_- H promised that he would spend time w me and not make me feel so sucky. aww.

2011-11-13T20:52:00.000-08:00

"In another life , I would be your girl."

"In another life, I would make you stay."

"& sometimes when I miss you I put the those records on."

Well, I'm currently listening t this song on repeat over and over again. & the best part I had flashbacks.

I know it's for the best and I know we'll never be.

Funny, I'm always there advising my friends and all but never using my own advise and having difficulties myself.

When some thinks I'm happy . Some thinks I'm strong. Wanna swap heart w mine ? Because mine's broken .

2011-11-12T23:40:00.000-08:00

Because I'm a girl, I know how it feels like t be cheated on.
I know how it feels like when your boyfriend is not being honest.
I respect my own sex, therefore I shall not and will not date someone who's already attached.

I'm sorry A . I know you're honest but the fact is that someone else loves you already.

If you're dating someone who's attached or having a huge crush or what w a guy who's already taken by someone else , you should really stop. Simply said , it's not nice.

xx

2011-11-09T07:53:00.000-08:00

Hi, anybody miss me ? Like , I wonder if somebody or anybody would like ermm you know keep checking out my blog for new post(s) or smth else. Who knows right? LOL .

You know what's new ? My dad actually gave me "curfue" I don't actually have a problem w it. I wasn't pissed or what . I'm totally cool w it . Not say like I enjoy partying now. Yeah , as some of you who's been following me up , I tell parents that I club. It's better t be honest. I feel more secure also . I don't have t come out w such lies nor do I have t sneak out . Of course you need trust . & I don't think I am a problematic child. Okay , I think it's individual. Some might think it's disrespectful and all. It's just individual. I don't want t make huge fuss out of it.

Anyway , I've been working from 8.30 till late late afternoon. Our store had Model Store . I did a little bit here and there . I know , I'm the worst " tak menjadi VMS " ever . It was really fun . I don't mind doing this . Like , coming in early and go home early for VM . Thank god , I have interest because when they were short - handed I didn't mind extending for like 1 and half hour . Plus , I didn't show shit face. So , you people better appreciate me! HAHAHA . - just saying .

After work , I head down t Parkway Parade t run some personal errands and now I'm home not so sweet home ! The only meal I had was just Mac'D w no fries . Just cup corn :) Feel soo mcm paham already. I really have the urge t eat rice tomorrow . Not say I cannot eat rice but the ermm "lauk2" I want will make my skin even worst. ( I've been eating beancurd sia ) . Eat lots of veggies and lots of water, if not my money and medication won't do any good. Basically, I need t watch my diet . ERGH. I'm so envious w the people who can eat anything and everything.

I actually "adjust" my body clock . Right , just getting my sleep for at least 8 hours is consider okay already. I felt quite fresh actually. I wonder how's school gonna be like next year. Will I able t juggle school and work at the same time ? This is not ITE . *fingers crossed*

xxx

love you readers.

2011-11-02T10:02:00.000-07:00

One day was the most best love story I've ever watched. Now, I'm not a huge fan of lovely dovey love stories but I'll make this an exception. If you guys haven't watch the trailer I am so willing t put it up here.

It's better for you t watch it w a girl because I think it's kindda draggy and most boys might not like it. My top 3 love stories will be P/S I Love You , The Time Travelers Wife and this.

Today's dinner was at Timbre @ Substation. Movies over at Golden Village. You see , my Wednesday night is pretty much very clean.

I was supposed t go t Dr Yang for my monthly skin visits but I decided t skip and go tomorrow instead since , I'm gonna run some personal errands also. I have my pedicure appointment and waxing and my brows. Goodness , this is crazy. & I won't be blogging till next Weekend? xx

2011-11-01T22:48:00.000-07:00

Is it just me or do I always wear black for any events/parties. I am so contradicting . I hate the colour black and yet black looks real good.

The dinner was held at Festive Season's Hotel. It feels like another WTC event because all I see are all the WTC people. I guess when you grow older , your workmates are all you've got? Correct me if I'm wrong. I don't have any close friends from my secondary school. My top 3 girls are all from work or maybe ITE. Okay , so I side track a lil bit . We spent the night at Hard Rock Hotel. Awesome right ?

Anyway , it's November ! It's been exactly a year and I'm not sure how or when it officially happened but I just wanna say that time was by my side healing me even though I had scars here and there and memories waiting t be forgotten. So , today's my off day and I'll be heading t town and Timbre for my Wednesday night! xxx

2011-10-27T09:59:00.000-07:00

POP CULTURE WTC ANNUAL DINNER AND DANCE.

So , this is what I wore for D&D . Believe it or not , I got it the night before. ( I had back up's though. Is just that this looks so much much better.) It was my first ever D&D . It was really fun. The whole entire company was there , the office people and the front line people . There was so much entertainment!

Apologies, laptop is a bitch. I couldn't upload any on fb nor could I had access t my blog last few nights. I literally have no time. I've got last min VM to do at 8 a.m tomorrow and I had t extend till 11 p.m when work started at 10 a.m . I'm totally looking forward for my another weekend's Off. 3 days , straight! I know right. I have , my weekends jam pack! I had t even choose.

.... For now , I sort of got bored w clubs and drinks and gettin' real high. I'm just gonna pause for now and do something more productive ? I went Zirca on Wed's night and left really early and I didn't drink. YES I DID NOT. Not even ONE.

I'll update soon ? xxx

2011-10-22T00:21:00.000-07:00

I'm so annoyed. Motherfuckin' annoyed w the people around me . For he who thinks I am so happy living the perfect life. Seriously ? You think I'm happy ? I am just content and making the best out of myself. Funny how some thinks that I'm such a strong person. I loved gettin' morning messages from you and all , hanging out whenever we're both free a weekdays. But you made me choose between my bestfriend and you . All I wanted was just t be w you and have you coming over t watch her together w me .

& moving on ....

I'm so pissed because my Saturday plan failed. Everybody had t canceled last min. God damn it , you know how hard for me t request a weekend off ? and everybody just abused it. Fuck you all. Malas nak layan.

I shall go do something productive today.

2011-10-13T10:05:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite top girl's in my list. As much as I hate havin' too much of my own sex as my friends because of all the dramas, havin' some is actually comforting. I guess these are the girls that I've meet up regularly? The rest are all busy w their boyfriends and work or more like they are busy w their lives! So anyway, I'm trying my very best t meet my long lost , Farah Fahana . Yeah , and of course my best friend . I haven't talk t her for ages. 2 of my top girls. The boys are all schooling and in NS . At the end of the day you'll be alone.

I'm so used w being alone. ( Not tryin' t sound depressing ) Like, being errr , independent? I've already managed my financial not depending on anybody. I can eat alone during break time. ( Not many people my age can do that you know! At tampines somemore . ) I have the people whom I loved and cherished. I have , Att Kelmari , Suriani Samsuri , Farah Fahana , Taufeeq too. My work mates are awesome for being just work mates. Clubbing is just a distraction. & Gennie for takin' care of me whenever we party. You see , don't I have the best people already ?

pictures are all taken during my off days. spending time w my bimb. I've been sleeping late, waking up early and havin' work taken over me . Life's a bitch sometimes. But hell, it's better than nothing. Oct has been really great. I can't wait for D&D , J's Wedding Dinner & Halloween. Too bad I can't have ladies night for this month. I don't seemed t have any Thursdays off. I hate going t work w less sleep. It's just me, I know that.

Weekends off. TGIF FOR ME !
( It's not easy , if you're working under retail )

2011-10-10T22:35:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY FASHION PARTY 11'

uhhh ohhh. I think this is like the third time I've been in this outlet havin' the Fashion Party. ION Fashion Party was a missed. Oh well. We all had fun :) One of the many reasons why I am still working here. I have so many many up-coming activities/events during my off days this whole month.

Ohhh , I've been stockin' up my make up essentials and etc. ^_^ I just cleaned my dressing table. When I have time, I put up a picture of my finished room.

2011-10-07T20:42:00.000-07:00

Do not asked me how do I find time t even update my blog. I just happened t be up early when work starts at 2pm later. I had a good breakfast though :)

Update for health ; My rash is gettin' much much better.

But what I'm worried about is if I'm depending on the meds ? I mean, I can't be on meds for the rest of life right? I've stopped the cream except for the pills. For my acne problems ; so far I am able t put on make up . Light make up that is. & for the scars I think it will take time ? I just need loads and loads of water and vegs. Subway is already killin' me. I'm also tryin' this new thing which the Brands Essence thingy. Let's see :)

Other than all my skin problems, I'm good.

2011-10-05T21:51:00.000-07:00

Anyway , I wanna thank Feeq for treating me my way belated B'day treat last night. We had movie and Swensens!

2 days of leave was damn shiok! I get to do the things that I never get t do everyday. Like, waking up super later after noon at least. Having hours of naps. Painting my nails. tvs and online movies. junks and sims social. many many more lah huh !

&& I found the dress ! Well, I wanted pants like leather2 kind of pants but than the top is hard t get. So , decided for all an all sequins play suit! hehh hehh . so exciting. Up next , shoes and accessories plus the hair-do. This month , I'm going bonkers! yikeees!

2011-10-04T22:55:00.000-07:00

Today's the first day of my leave. I'm having two leaves back t back which is pretty much heavenly I tell you. I'm bummed at home actually. I'm pissed because I have a gazillion plans tomorrow and not a single one today. It's a Weds night and ya'll know what's already in my mind eh? I'm still thinkin' about it. I'm quite bored w the same thing every night. Since, I'm tryin' t save money , I shall skip tonight.

I've decided t support my best friend for the New Paper New Face finals tomorrow w my baby girl, Iani Richie. Honestly, I cannot wait t convert back into part - time . I'm sure I've worked hard enough and saved enough for school, next year.

I'll go figure what's my plan for tonight or maybe later. When I'm free , my friends are not. H is working . R is working god knows what about the rest also. I should just stay home today and hang out the whole of tomorrow? Sounds good? I'll play Sims Social online and err , movies ?

2011-10-01T10:09:00.000-07:00

Ohh , hello October !

I still cannot believed it's October already. Even if it's nearly almost a year , it still feels like yesterday. I know right, I should stop talking about already. I'm already sailing away on this stupid boat of mine gettin' tangled somewhere and somehow still figuring things out.

Yes, I found my school. So, the most important thing is settling down soon. I need time. I don't have time at all. My only free time is like when I'm working M shift which is only errr , once or twice in few weeks ? I may have 2 off days which always seemed t be occupied w some of friends. I still have t make up dates w many of girls.

So today was off my off . Thanks t A who took MC and my off day was stretched and I got a weekend off baby. Even on my off day, I still have t wake up early in the morning. I had my doctor's appt at freakin' 10 . After doc's appt , I had short nap and went out w A for dinner and choosing an outfit for D&D. So annoying. I still don't know what t wear. The dress I fell in love w was like 400 plus ?! I must be practical . I just spent nearly half of my pay for medical bill's. & I'm halfway broke. I dislike being broke by end of mth so I am controlling my spending.

Do you what's the most important thing you have t do once your pay comes in. Like, the die die must pay.

- bus fare.

- contact lens.

- phone bill.

Yes, it's not my reservations it's my daily needs. fuckin' daily needs. For now , it will be my third time resigning from the company. haha , like maen2 like that . ttyl , soon ?

2011-09-28T21:50:00.000-07:00

( so, I'm w my hair mask on waiting for another 10 minutes . )

Having long hair is such a chore. I have a strong urge t cut it so damn bad or maybe I should like curl it or somethin' .

Apologies for not updating much. Work has already taken over me. & if I don't spend time w my friends , I'll be friend-less. Not exactly but yeah. I'm not looking forward for tomorrow even though it's pay day.

I'm gonna have a bitter ending for my September. & I hope Oct will be just fine. I've been researching for " POP ROCK " It's the company D&D which I am totally looking forward. I haven't even picked what colour I want or an inspiring icon. I'll go for Taylor Momsen maybe ? Or Avril ? Should I wear a dress or pants or god knows. I have 3 weeks ? Not forgetting J's Wedding dinner next month.

Have I told you guys that I'll be going t school and it's official ? I'll be converting back t part-time by end of this year ^_^ I just need a better pay . That's all. I'm not saying that my pay sucks now but if you look at it long - term , retail is not what I want.

2011-09-22T07:02:00.000-07:00

Hell , it's not TGIF for me. I've got like the saddest news ever. The person I'm close w is leaving me. I mean, everythin' right now is perfect. Put aside all the little things and you'll see a family. I know people have t be expose t new environment and etc but still!

So anyway , I have t be at Toastbox tomorrow at 9 a.m t meet G. Thank god I don't have t travel all the way t Kovan. I might as well just die. I'll do my best , okay?

Today's lunch was w Danial at Century Sq. I miss going there. I miss eating "ban mian" I guess, I avoided that place for quite some time. I may always be at Tampines but I'm never at Century nor at the mall. If you're smart you'll know the reason.

I know that things have already fallen back into places. It's true what they say, time will pass by you and your heart will get better .

2011-09-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO ME :)

I've deleted the previous post . I'm so fickle minded right? I'm back here at blogspot. I'm so sorry. I just prefer it here and not some other places.

So anyway , I love Att Kelmari many many more than ever. FIrstly, she saved up money and didn't shop much this month because she wanted t splurge on me for our date on the 18TH of September. We had dinner at Nando's and movies. The day before I partied w I and friends. Basically, that's that. I've so many things I want t do this month but sadly, work is taking over me. I don't know if I want t skip work and enjoy the weekends since I've gotten myself free tickets to HED KANDI GP EDITION. HOW LEH ?! I want t go so damn bad.

Well, this will be the period of time when I don't really feel like working. Like, I want t have a life. Of course I'm not that foolish to ditch work lah. I think long-term . Tonight is Wed's night . I want t get high but instead , I'm stuck at home doing nothing. The reason why I could blog maybe ? 2 days back t back and I'm not making full use of it . dashdotdash.

Uhh ohh , I watched Johnny English w H.A today. It was really funny. It reminded me of the movie , The Pink Panter (however you spell it). Dinner was Tom Yum Fried Fish , nyummy.

2011-09-08T08:33:00.000-07:00

I've changed my blog to tumblr. click here!

Yeah , I like it simple.

2011-09-02T12:07:00.000-07:00

LEBARAN 11'

So anyway , I'm moving bitches. This will be the last post I'm gonna post . Have fun google-ing :D

Is just that , my blogger is being an asshole so I've decided to move . I know I have another onsugar account which I do not know how t delete also.

Oh before I forget, SELAMAT HARI RAYA , TO ALL MY MUSLIMS READERS :)

Yes , I know I know it's kind of a bit a little to late to wish right ?

2011-08-26T23:32:00.000-07:00

Being a human being, I tend to ignore things around me. I may not be a good example of a good Islam but that does not make me that of a bad person.

That's it , I'm telling the whole world that work's a bitch. I don't know how can some people can endure it for 5/6 or maybe less but more than 3 years ? I mean, really ? Do you guys have any motivation or errr secret to share ? Please do . The most common reason they give is " Patience is a virtue " God damn it , I heard that a million times. Don't you think that I have enough patience too ? I know that some , their responsibilities is not as much as I am . Oh well , I know I'm still okay w it . If I love someone or something , I know I can go far w whatever shit I get from em'. Right now , I want to further my studies. Sticking to my current job till god knows when is pretty much a good idea because I know it's stable.

The Festive Season is like literally around the corner. I've got my outfits plus , wedge . I just need t get a freaking clutch bag. Aldo would probably be a good idea. Maybe tomorrow , I'll drop by town for clutch hunting and a bit of this and that . Since I'm gonna be morning for the next few days. heh heh . I need t update my wardrobe into this season , autumn/winter . Not that I mean , thick jackets and all . Just cute knitwear i've been seeing around. A change of warm colours will do also . I need t start dressing up because I get so ermm low self esteem when all the other vms are dressing up.

This week , I've been staying home and meeting Nat for late nights. That is all .

2011-08-20T11:41:00.000-07:00

the wonders of make - up. well , and yeah my phone is not clear anyway.

They say, ignorance is bliss. After all the nasty things I've heard , I totally had enough. I am done being dumb and naive and not to forget how gullible I can be sometimes. So what if I've learned it the hard way, bottom line is ,I don't make the same mistakes twice. Yes , I am that of a strong person. Slowly, I will learn to keep things to myself. Pardon me, if I opened up too much .

Enough said. I'm waiting for my nails to dry before heading to bed. Finally, I can paint my nails! I hate having naked nails. With just ten days left , I had t skip because of you know what.

Girls and their drama's. Seriously ? I mean , I've always thought you're the mature one and I had so much respect for you. What the hell girl, you've just drop something & that is your face in trash can. Poor thing. So young and already rushing for time .

2011-08-18T02:50:00.000-07:00

hurry up, please! I want t be treated like a princess on my birthday! I know, I said I wasn't looking forward. But I kind of change my mind already :) :)

Since, I'm working night shifts. ( Is not an everyday or every month thing is just every season ) I have the time to blog a little bit here and there. & because it is fasting month all the muslims get to leave by at least 4.30 a.m . Heh Heh. Best eh ? I had to do one mini wall. Gosh, building up a wall is so much harder than it seems. I swear. I felt like crying. Plus I was alone . A couldn't make it. Thank god for N who was willing t be my friend for 3 days. I was deadbeat , slept since 7 am and I woke up like at 5 plus ?

Life is still as dramatic as ever. I've been keeping to myself lately. Besides the fact that my mouth has been a bitch . I mean, who don't talk behind others right ? Everybody does. I won't talk about you unless you're my close friend. Other than that , nothing else matter. My schedule is forever changing. It's been changing ever since. I can't believed I'm actually looking forward for next week . I tell you when it's really official. Right now , it's still in the air.

xoxo

2011-08-12T07:32:00.000-07:00

Firstly, apologies for not updating much. I don't think I want to make such effort for my blog anymore. I would rather have enough sleep you know. I've been spending a lot of my time w my friends and of course half the time at work. I told you that my August is not gonna good. In fact, it's even worst than expected. I just want to get it done and over with and put everything behind me. Also, not wanting history to repeat itself.

It all happened when August came flying in and it totally crashed on the first week. My tolerance for everything was so damn low even till today. & the best part, it's only the second week of the month. Anyway, it didn't affect my social life. It's the fasting month and I avoided alcohol and non-halal food. I had Iftar Session w Iani Richie and meet up w some of my old friends. S is already back in S'pore. She'll be here for another week or two and will be going back to Atlantic pretty soon. :( We had like a lot of catching up to do. I'm glad we still keep in touch.

Serenia Harris

Iani Richie

Raihanna Rosli

Liana

ilovemygirls.

I got used to the whole F , F and MF shifts thing. 5 working days and 2 off days a week. I have plenty of time for myself and my friends. Only thing is that model store is coming next week and I'm gonna work from 9.30 pm till 5.30 or earlier ? Again, my sleep timing will jam I tell you! I'm really keen to learn more on VM. I passed my mini VM assessment. Up next , is the model store exam where I need to build up a wall. Oh god, wish me luck for that .

I've learned not to be naive and trust anybody so easily. Be it a boy or a girl. Do not open up to everybody even if you see them everyday. I don't know how can some people live w the guilt in them. It's really a lesson learnt. I don't make the same mistake twice. It hit me hard. I must learn to be a very reserved person. It's always easier said than done. When a trust is broken , everything else falls apart.

2011-07-31T08:41:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IANI BABY

I LOVE YOU MANY MANY!

& I know it's kind of belated. I had t make it up t her for ditching her on Saturday. There was supposed t be a surprised.I had pretty bad rashes so I couldn't make it. After work today, I rushed down t Tampines Mall and than made my way t Makan Sutra. I had her present all wrapped up w a heart shape puzzle card. It was an hour worth of waiting and 30 mins worth of time. We had quick poloroids and snapshots here and there. We'll hang soon okay I'm glad you liked the present. Hehe , next time don't be so careless w your wallet!

There's nothing much you've missed.

Just movies w Taufeeq , Captain America at Marina Square. && dinner w family at FishandCo. What's up w me and Fish&Co ? Don't know why.

It's the end of July. I really loved my July. It was so much better than all the previous months. I'm meeting up w S this coming Weds. I hope August is as nice as July :)

Oh yeah, Happy Fasting !

2011-07-28T21:32:00.000-07:00

Hiii , I'm currently at Mac'd @ ECP w the boys. It was kind of impromtu actually. I was out for like the whole day from 7 in the morning till now! It's coming t midnight -_-". I had my final comfirmation course thingy. It wasn't difficult. I've got a competed! Yeay me! So, from Kovan I rushed down to Parkway for dinner w Feeq and Firzo at Fish&Co. I know right, I was craving for fish and chips and that's the nearest I could find. Having sushi or Thai food is really out of the qnstion. I have to think about other people even though Firzo was like 20 mins late ?

Anyway , I should be heading home now. I'll be on Full Shift tomorrow from 10 to 10. Tiring? Not really. I'm looking forward for the last weekend of the month. && I actually loved July. Sad , August is coming and I'm not looking forward to it. It's not because of the fasting month. It's the up coming events/work that I've got in store.

You know what . My phone DIED. DIED on me . Like die2 have to buy a phone . NO choice. I'm gonna take a shower and head down to parkway to get a new one. There goes my money.

2011-07-22T10:11:00.000-07:00

Because I am so free and couldn't sleep, I decided to update my blog. After this, nothing much t talk about. My next date will be w Iani Richie on her B'day <3

I cannot wait for November, yes NOVEMBER . I want to skip August and I don't care about my 20TH B'day. I just want fly all the way t November. Yeah , I know fasting month is around the corner. It's already more than half a year. & the next thing you know, it's already the Festive Season . Is anybody excited about it ? Err , I'm not . In fact, I don't even mind working on the First day which I am not. We all had an agreement among each other. ( Yeah, the problem when you work w too many Malays ) I'm not saying it's a bad thing. It's nothing bad, really.

My body clock is already haywire . I've been out since Wed's ? My 2 and a half off days was really worth it. Ladies night at Double O w C and G and some others. Club hopping. && my next off day is like end of the month ? Oh great. I'll survive, no worries :)

I'll try not to okay maybe I WILL NOT go for clubs for the whole month of August. I didn't drink y'know the other night. Believe it, no joke man. Christine was so surprised when I rejected like a thousand and one drink offers. Everybody was freaking drinking and I was the loser one drinking Fuji Mineral Water. Hah. So proud of myself . Heh heh .

2011-07-20T05:03:00.000-07:00

the best relationship is when you two can act like lovers & bestfriends, its when you have more playful moments than serious moments, its when you joke around, have unexpected hugs, and random kisses. its when you two just give each other specific stares and smile, its when we’ll rather chill inside to watch movies, & eat junk food & cuddle rather than go out all the time. its when we’ll stay up all night to settle our arguments and issues. its when i can completely act myself & you can still love me for who i am.

TRUE STORY BRO.

- unknown.

2011-07-19T14:07:00.000-07:00

Apologies for not updating much. The fact is that I spent half of my time working and going for courses and etc. ( God knows how long will I stay at WTC ) Oh well, we can put that aside. I don't fancy job-hopper(s) and I will never be one. Further studies or going t another line will have t wait till next year.

Anyway, it's already like the middle July. I'm waiting for S and maybe September ? I'm not looking forward for August. Not because of the festive season and I want t skip the fasting month. My working schedule is a bit very extremely unsatisfactory ? Going through VMS under training is actually hard work even though you get extra money. I think it's like nursing, you need the passion and all. I'm really keen t learn more and all just that sometimes I really don't like working too hard. So , August is going t be a very very long month for me.

I actually made full used of my last 2 back t back off days somewhere last week ? I know right. I'm only updating it now. I was trying t get enough sleep so I didn't even bother t do anything else except for making love w my bed. I went w the boys last Saturday! For , Harry Potter .

Harry Potter was awesome! I don't mind watching it again and again! I think I might be watching it again w Christine on the 21ST. After movies, was shisha ( as usual) .

I need my sleep now. It's 2 p.m . I woke up at 7 a.m and head down t KB for some course and here I am having lunch while blogging and fb-ing. I cannot multi-task for nuts man I tell you. Whenever I have things t do , I don't listen t music like how most people do it. I'm a female who can't multi-task. How nice. xx

p/s: I'll be extremely busy for the whole month of August.

2011-07-15T01:17:00.000-07:00

gees , I am fully satisfied w my July. && t complete my July , S will be coming back from Vegas on the 27TH of this month. I really cannot wait for you babe. Please , hurry !

Anyway, my current favorite ;

I got it recorded on cable since I'm always busy w work . I might be going out later or maybe not. I mean, I'll be meeting the boys for HP 7 tomorrow ! Cannot wait , long time no see ehh :D :D

2011-07-08T08:53:00.000-07:00

My off day w Danial Suhaime :)

I think right I'm like the last person on earth t watch Transformers. & btw , I cannot watch 3D . So kental lah . I wore for like less than 30 mins only . isk! So , lunch was at Pasta Mania and desserts buffet at Swensens Ion. Imma fat fat kid.

&& I told myself I am never NEVER gonna club if I'm working the next day. It's a straight hell no even if I'm working afternoon the next day . I felt so lethargic like nobody's business I tell you. I had ladies night a few days ago . ( Yah , I know it's like Friday today ) . Maybe because it was after work and all , that's why. I still had fun . I wasn't bad drunk okay .

that's that . I'm gonna shower and hit the bed . Full shift on a Saturday is no fun man .

2011-07-05T09:05:00.000-07:00

Impromptu meet up w Iz and his friends. We're heading t ECP Mac'D. Long time no see nor have we talked for quite some time .

I feel like I'm having 2 off days back t back when actually yesterday I had my NEO and I scored 85%. Happy or what . Not bad for someone who never study . After NEO was my doc's appointment. Spending 300 dollars on medication is no joke man. & hey , tomorrow's ladies night is still under consideration . I don't know why now a days , I feel more and more tired .

Oh yeah , I'm still waiting and waiting and waiting . It's past mid-night already . tskkkkkkk.

2011-06-29T20:53:00.000-07:00

I'm partying tonight w my babygirl ♥.♥

This time, I won't ditch any of you girls. I swear!

Since it's my off day tomorrow so why not right ? I'm not sure if I'm able do make it on other days . I won't be able t make it on all the Saturday's for the whole month of July because I'll be on M for the whole of Sunday's. 0.0 && Yeahhh , I better show up tonight <3

I'll be at New Asia Bar . ( I hope )

2011-06-28T10:19:00.000-07:00

There is one thing I've learnt , partying and getting yourself wasted or even trying to forget the world will not change the fact that at the end of the day you're still going t get that same kind of feeling that you felt in the place. I admit , at first I thought it was a good remedy. Well , until one day it hit me . So, I learned it the hard way. It doesn't matter anyway .

But you know, I'm just waiting for time and it's healing . I'm happy . And oh - my - god , I think lady luck is on my side . I've got something huge t share but you know what , I can't blog about it . I'm trying t keep it low profile . Like real only . But really, I don't want the whole world or whoever's reading know much about me . Something new , I'm trying t work on. Just wish me luck okay! I feel like I'm taking some huge exam . I am totally prepared w a heavy heart though . Like I say, it's kinda bitter sweet thing for me .

If you have t pick between happiness and more money , which will you go for ?

Being happy and not have a comfortable life or not being happy but you can afford anything you want , ANYTHING :) ( except a car lahh , basically nothing huge ) For me , like spending 500 dollars at topshop and splurge on designer's bags ? sighhhhh *

2011-06-26T20:01:00.000-07:00

this is so true right ? It was random . E asked me t watched this because I was bored at home a few nights ago . xx

2011-06-24T06:56:00.000-07:00

That stranger I saw the other day was the most important person in the world. It's really funny how can someone suddenly not speak to each other the next day and have someone else t replace . & When I love you's don't mean anything anymore.

I did a little pampering . Hair Mask , Body Scrub and painted my nails w my new China Glaze. I think I wanna buy many many! Heh ^_^ Yah , I stayed home today . Online movies w junks . I'm hoping for my allowance to come in tonight or maybe tomorrow . I am so broke . Urgh!

uh oh , July hurry come! I want t meet S who's gonna be back frm Vegas in July! Bestfriend and I are already planning for USS . I've been dying t go there . We must make it happen! I miss clubbing also . Like long time never go . Let's hope my work is not in the way . I never party for the whole of June . Must wait for next month! && Dad's b'day is coming soon also . Must show him that he's not forgotten :) :) :)

I took actions for the things I've said . I got the necessary things needed and I'm now waiting for results. It's kinda bitter sweet for me . One of the many reasons why I'm looking forward for July!

Things t look forward ;

- Dad's B'day ( I'll figure something out ) I should like give him a treat .

- Brazilian Waxing @ Stripped on the 8TH w Wati . It's successfully booked!

- USS w bestfrieend and maybe together w the boys

- Picnic w the boys at ECP . ( must make a date ) I don't know when also

- loads of bumming around w S at Pasir Ris .

- party party party.

2011-06-21T07:49:00.000-07:00

uh oh , look! My China Glaze is already here . Well , not really . It's w Wati . We ordered it together. I really cannot wait t paint my nails! I'll wait for my off day and give myself a little pampering :)

So anyway, after 2 days of model store I'm finally done. && I slept the whole of today . I know right. I was dead beat. There's really nothing much. Well, I've been staring at the calender for like half an hour figuring out how t make full use of my "RO". Boy , I cannot wait for July . I'm gonna many many off days!

2011-06-19T18:41:00.000-07:00

See , I'm not fat okay ! Look at my arms ! HAHAHAHA .

Anyways , I hope everybody had a good weekend . At least , I know I did ! I've been waking up early ( even today ) I think it's locked in my body system or something . I'm actually having a major headache from last night . Maybe because I'm mentally tired ?

So , I had double date w R and his bestfriend , Zul and the girlfriend . GREEN LANTERN 3D . I've been watching movies for like every week eh ? After movies , we had Botak Jones and erm just hanging out somewhere here and there .

I've got work later at 9.30 pm till like the next day ? . BORING . I would rather stay at the shop floor for 12 hours than doing all those little things in the early morning . But what t do , I have t love what I'm doing right now . & I shall sleep the whole of today .

2011-06-19T02:38:00.000-07:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY , AYAH ♥

You know I will always be daddy's little girl . & no matter what you're still the best father in the whole wide world ! I appreciate every little things . I love you! xoxox

2011-06-17T19:22:00.000-07:00

TGIF!

I finally got my full 8 hours of sleep. I've been waking up as early as 6 in the morning ever since Monday . Not that I'm complaining you know . It's just I'm not that quite of a morning person . && w the fact that I've been working for 6 days straight . I've got my Saturday off ! The best part is, I've got plans for my Saturday :)

Also , the frequency of my sleep will be running out of place for next week due t model store from 9.30 pm till the next day for 2 days straight . -____-" Oh , my poor body system.

Anyway , last Wednesday was movies w Taufeeq after work . I was out the whole day . From 8 in the morning till 11 at night . Boy, I was half dead already. X-MEN FIRST CLASS . I think Something Borrowed is still the best . 2nd is X-MEN First Class last will have t be Hang Over 2 because it's v v predictable , it's like you know the drill and all .

Oh yeah, I'm still trying t get my words into actions. It needs time and it takes time. It's gonna be the worst and most difficult decision making ever.

2011-06-15T00:00:00.000-07:00

It's time for me t make up my mind . I have t either stay or leave. I have no complaints , put aside all the differences w everything , I pretty much love my current job. Really. Honestly, you have t face reality w the fact that money comes first or more likely money sort of plays apart even if some say money can't buy love or love makes the world goes round.

I give myself till the end of this year . I've been thinking about it for quite some time and somehow fate or lady luck is not by my side. Okay , I'm 20 and I have many things I want t do and many things I can do . Not like I have t serve the nation or anything like that right ? I have all the time in the world. I admit , I'm scared . This whole world of mine is my comfort zone . Even when I'm at work , I'm so used and pampered w what I have w my surroundings. Everybody was there for me. I'm never independent . NEVER . How like that ?

Retail for all your life ? Is this what I really want ? I can't have the best of both worlds. I have to choose .

2011-06-14T08:00:00.000-07:00

It's not like I'm stuck in the past or what . I mean , I'm just not ready . It's not like I erm going through some "anti - love " thing when I say , I swore that all boys are assholes and jerks or whatsoever . It's not that . I am not one of those who can just open up and share half of my life w some stranger one fine day and everything turns out t be fine . Maybe one or two casual dates once in a while is fine but holding hands and going much more is kinda too much for me . I've not been looking back, ( okay maybe once or twice ) but I'm just not like the rest moving on w someone else that fast . Or like M said ; I never give myself a chance . Maybe I don't but who cares right ?

2011-06-13T00:15:00.000-07:00

Last night's supper :)

It's been so so so damn long since I last went t Simpang . Oh wait , we all went there on V'day, this year. Yepp! Not w TSTM but w my classmates. So anyways , it still felt like ages! Eh, do you think I've gained weight or something ? It looks like it eh. Just when things are getting better , I am getting fatter . oh-em-gee.

Maybe because I'm happy ? or I cannot make up my mind t be skinny skinny or a little bit meat-ier or something . Like have curves or something . Yeah, something like that . Firzo says I look chubbier and Iani said I've gained like MAJOR . I do weight checks every 2 weeks because of my doc's appointment. I stand at a height of 164 and I weigh around 52 kG , how's that ? Still fat ah ? Okay, maybe because erm I'm happy ? I'm really happy ? Not happy happy but just average ? or the angle of the camera . Yeah , maybe it's that .

Today , I felt like a bloody cunt . I was told that VM Course starts today at 8 am . I was so into it and all got my momentum and all . Left the house early and took the train instead of the bus so that I won't be late only t know that the thingy was revised and postponed t the 15TH instead. EVERYBODY ELSE KNEW ABOUT IT EXCEPT US . I don't blame em' . Maybe they're just busy or what . We laughed our asses off feeling ridiculously stupid and silly like some idiots and walked out and went home less than half and hour later. I can't complain , can I ? I mean , I choose t be in this line . Last minute changes , spending more time at work are bound t happen . I'm not mad, really .

2011-06-09T07:59:00.000-07:00

Christine! She's like the coolest "pinoy" I've ever met . She's one of my workmate .

I had movies again. && I finally got my hands on Cold Stone Birthday Bash Remix Ice Cream. Nyummeh. Anyway, I'll be going for VM course this coming Monday at KB . I'm excited and nervous because I don't what t expect . I hope it won't be tough. I know I've been telling some people if I've got better job offers , I'll go for it . But you see, I'm so used and pretty much content w the surroundings and management so quitting my job is not really on the top of my list. I know the pay's isn't much at all.

2011-06-08T19:21:00.000-07:00

Breakfast Meeting @ scape.

The theme was Vibrant Colours!

Maybe because I'm only 20 and I'm v playful so I think that its like a some principle talk or something. But it's a good talk for people who wants t take retail seriously.

Anyway, I had like 22 hours of sleep and I'm still sleepy. It's like 10 in the morning now . I think I'll have a quick nap before going out w C later . xx

2011-06-07T09:37:00.000-07:00

We had good food , gotten our nails done. ( which I think, from now I only go for pedicure because my nails cannot last for more than a week! due t vm ) thanks huh. I wasted $15 for my one day only. && we both enjoyed the Hangover 2! I know I know , I am supposed t watch it w the boys once Feeq is back.

Anyway , who goes t scape at 7.15 in the morning ? WTC goes there at 7 in the morning! I'll be attending the breakfast meeting . It's a themed event . I roughly know what I'm gonna wear . I put 3 bottoms and 2 tops aside . I'll decide in my sleep tonight for tomorrow's outfit . Plus , Thursday my off day which I'm staying home . I'm gonna be all out for tomorrow.

2011-06-05T07:49:00.000-07:00

Fun Dining w movies on a rainy Sunday .

I'll update soon . I'm just so tired .

2011-06-02T09:35:00.000-07:00

DAY #3

&& it's my last day of MC . I didn't quite enjoy it . I did practically everything on bed. Like ,watching movies , skype , webcam and etc . Because I spent 2 days on bed and not leaving the house , I'm actually having major headache right now . Best part , I'm doing morning shift tomorrow . pffft .So anyway, I had my brows done at the usual . ( I like gg t places that I'm used to ) . The facial person whom I see twice a week says evertyhin' is much better compared t the last time we met. Which is a good thing. Spending around $300 to $400 per week is no joke you know. I had a sense of relieved and kinda happy about it too. I had my retail therapy . I went t TSTO t get my sales reservations. I'm left w erm 3 t 4 pieces left ? I spent around 80 plus ? Which is not bad , eh ?

Bought :

Jamie Jeans

Brown Skinny Belt

Things on hold :

Coral Toga Dress ( planning t wear for new asia bar or zirca next week )

White Bag

Purple slip on top

I also had lunch w A and BFF at Starbucks, Tampines. I've got like complimentary drinks and cakes on the house because of the card thingy which is on hold ! I'm savin' it for this Sunday !

2011-06-01T21:30:00.000-07:00

Those were times when nothing else matter.

We were like the best of friends. We don't work , no boyfriends . It was just US .

I know they will never betray me. I know , they won't . I'm sorry . I've forgotten all of you guys.

Hey S , I heard you've moved t the States . Mayb , I didn't get you text or call because I changed my number . When was the last time we last met ? Really ?

2011-05-31T06:31:00.000-07:00

Extremely bad skin allergies. Bloody rashes and skin problems. I had like 2 japs . && loads of medications . Cannot believe that because of all these , I've gotten myself 3 days on medical leave. Tomorrow's my off day . But you know what, why not eh ? I mean , it's legal and all . This kind of thing don't come in easy you know. On top of that , it's bloody expensive.

Even when I'm working in the afternoon ( I thought I was uh , I brought like my shoes and uniform and everythin' else.) , I had t wake up as early as 9 in the morning. I cab-ed all the way from here t the doc from the doc t home. && I had my hair done. It was v impromptu actually. I went t the usual . Initial plan was t colour my hair . But then , my top was already in bad shaped . So , I got my hair straighted out again. It's really dry now . I also got myself a couple of Shiseido ( however you spell it ) hair product. I spent less than a 150/- on hair .

DAY 1 .

After spending 3 hours at the hair saloon , did my nails too btw . I went home for lunch got myself another book and slept the whole day . pretty much that was it. I wonder if I could like survive for the another 3 days.

2011-05-31T01:37:00.001-07:00

2011-05-29T20:26:00.000-07:00

pointless . work haven't even started , I am already looking forward to end of the day . Pay day is tomorrow night. I don't know if I have any motivation for work today. Let's just hope I do , yeah ? I hope all the fun people are working today . Oh , have you seen our uniform ? It reminds me of annoying orange . Mine's temp. I'm wearing PT uniform till FT uniform is out . I really like the new uniform though. Very very high summer very very colour clash.

Anyway , I've got t go . Happy Sunday !

&& dearest JUNE , for the past few months things got from bad t worst and now it's gettin' a little bit better than rest . I really hope you'll be nice t me . I know it should be me doing my best right ? So , yeah . It's fast how time flies.

2011-05-28T07:24:00.000-07:00

You know, you have t listen t both sides of the story. I'm not saying I'm a saint , I don't fall in love and I don't make mistakes, I do . It's obvious that you were really referring t me . I shall not blame you. I do wish we could somehow communicate like talk things out . I really am someone whom you can talked t if you're not happy w something or not . Yes , I was so young and stupid and maybe I am being so unreasonable . But you can't blame me right ? I appreciate it that you were there for me when I needed help. I won't forget that, I promised. It's sad that we're now so far away from each other. I couldn't accept the fact that we all are growing up so yeah .

Oh hi , so let's just forget about it . I don't care anymore .

I bought a few stuffs bits and pieces from here and there . I've not cleared my reservations . I mean, everybody in the world somehow take advantage on this sales period. I AM GUILTY . I spent like 30 dollars at DIVA ? A couple of sale items , regular price w my discount coupons. I mean, IT"S SALES RIGHT ? $6 for rings , $9 for this and that && $20 after discount for another this and that . Yeahhhh .

the things I'm looking forward w an additional discount ;

- JAMIE SKINNY .

- BROWN SKINNY BELT

- DENIM JACKET

- PURPLE SLIP ON THINGY

this is crazy . I finally got my phone back. I was phone-less for like urm 2 t 3 weeks ? Cannot believed that I actually survived. Praised the lord for that! I don't have any up - coming events or what . I've been doing some thinking about changing my job scope. I'm still scared . I mean, I've been working here for about erm 2yrs plus minus somewhere there ? I'm used t the people and environment and w the daily things I do . Having 2days off now is already a plus point for me. You know how much I hate decision making.

oh well .

2011-05-24T10:17:00.000-07:00

I really really don't know why am I up at this hour . I got home like an hour ago. I did all the minor minor VM things while A did the major ones. It took me like the whole entire day. Mind you, I had Full Shift today . Gees , I know I suck at it but I really like doing it. You don't need t exercise if you're always doing it . No kidding :)

Anyways , I had movies w Feeq and Iqbal on Monday. ( my off day ) How nice of em' boys t actually hang out w me. I sounded so desperate askin' everybody out on Monday. Feeq agreed even though he was like dead beat. Bal just go w the flow. (forever lah he) . We watched Paul at Plaza Sing . I wanted Strictly Pancakes but they all can't be bothered w me and my cravings .

Next shifts is like , Afternooon and Full . I love the fact that my bestfriend makes me laugh everyday at work. & so does the rest .

2011-05-21T19:47:00.000-07:00

There are days when you don't feel like working at all. Absolutely no mood at all. Not even a single bit. Okay, so you get what I mean. & today was the day. TGIF , indeed. You know, I really really a million billion times hate the before and after sales period. Preparation for sales and the aftermath of sale. Some human being are so barbaric when it come t sales. Because I've got no mood , M or A must had noticed it. I'm sorry guys.

Kindly ignore the post below. I was like erm suddenly feeling kind of emotional when I accidentally stumbled onto somethin' or someone I don't wish t remember. I have the " don't care , don't wanna know , don't mentioned he's/her name anymore attitude" Bottom-line, in my world you're fuckin' dead. That's how strong I am .

Actually, this post was supposed t be posted yesterday, Friday. The laptop died on me and I fell asleep. I was so darn tired because of god knows why also. I'm reporting for work at 2.30pm today . How nice . I can dilly dally and watch tv , have breakfast like a king. Life's good. Next off day is on Monday :)

Have a good weekend ! && oh , if retail is not bringin' me anywhere, I am going t have t change my job-scope into smth else. It's something that I've thought about for the past few days. Luckily, I've got backup.

2011-05-19T08:02:00.000-07:00

I miss you , I fucking miss you.

The world can be really cruel sometimes. I'm not a sadist nor am I being so emotional . I'm not looking back. I'm moving forward and holding on for tomorrow . I thought the feelings I once had has already you know , disappear or something. But it didn't. Sometimes, it feels like it was just yesterday. I still have everythin' in my head. From our first fight t when we first met . I know you're not perfect and all the bad things you've done but you still managed t make feel like I'm the happiest girl in the world. I just missed you . It's not worth it for me t dwell over the past . It's not worth it for me t cry over someone who's so in love w someone else who's obviously ten times better than I am.

I know I should had done something when I could but I didn't. It was your call not mine. I can't just cry and beg and do everythin' when you're wasting your time . I don't feel regret. I always believed that things happen for a reason and this may be a blessing in disguise.

Okay, I'm not crying. I swear . It's true, I'm happy :)

2011-05-18T19:53:00.000-07:00

okay okay , I shall be more rajin to update my blog. God knows who's reading it but yeah. Anyways, ever since I've got my alternate 2 days off per week life's been much better. Erm . I've got my time w my friends for movies and catching up w my girls. A little bit of shopping here and there. I try t shop at other places like F21 , MNG . Tryin' not t finish my money by end of this month. Which is like so darn hard I tell you.

I also managed t put my sleeping time back . Yeah , it's not haywire now. Sleeping by mid-night and waking up at 10 in the morning or earlier than that . Feels so good.

It's like Disney Princess in real life.

So, on Sunday which was my off day , I had movies w Danial Suhaime at Shaw House Lido. It's been only a week since opening and I've been there trice already. We had t go all the way t CenterPoint because he wanted t eat Swensens and it was he's treat ! No pictures was taken , I can't find a place that sells poloroid films.

I didn't had Monday's Blues. Like , I ended work at 2.30 pm and also movie was w Taufeeq . It was really really impromptu, I tell you. I should had picked a better movie. Honestly, I didn't really liked it. Heh!

I thought of havin' some time for myself. Like going t that bookstore and return the books and t borrow more. Yep, I've been reading again. Then again, I'm having my off day tomorrow w no plans so I might as well do my brows and get more books tomorrow. I thought of Zirca tonight but then I have t do set up tonight so like no time like that right . Tsk. I won't get it till like next month ? I need t get ready for work now.

2011-05-16T09:51:00.000-07:00

I've been out for movies for the past 2 days.

2011-05-11T08:46:00.002-07:00

mind fuckin'.

You see , I don't cry on that day because I realized we're not even friends t begin w and will never be one too. Girls and their mouth . This is why one of the many reasons I enjoy mixing w boys rather than girls. So the drama . & please , I've been through all these during high school. I don't need it again. Don't step over my head just because I've been keeping quiet. Everybody have their limits and you've crossed the line. I'm glad , we all talked about it. Guess who cried ? The ones w the big mouth and who like t talk behind people's back ended up crying. Why ? You were all shot dead and have nothing t say ? It's stupid t fight about it right ? You all kept it t long and don't bother t communicate that is why .

I just hope one day, you guys will actually realized. Now , I have better things t think about.

2011-05-08T00:45:00.000-07:00

so anyway, I am already an official workaholic which is not cool. Again, I am tryin' to balance out my social life and is not happening also. My sleep mode frequency all running out of place. For some people who's fuckin' not happy w the schedule and all she does is show her black face and attitude. If you're not happy , keep it t yourself. Aku malas nak layan orang mcm kau . You can't expect everybody t understand you . UNDERSTAND , you snobbish b.

&& yesterday , even when I was already half past dead I managed t dragged myself t meet up w Myra at Bugis Mrt Station w her friends. ( planned all cock up ) It wasn't hard choosing over Soul , Zirca or Zouk. We ended up at Zouk , the crowd was lesser there. Somehow , I don't really like seeing many many people around me. The music wasn't good though. The best part was I had my favorite girl w me and I got t let my hair down after workin' for 7 days straight. It feels good.

What's my plan for my Sunday ? Well, I'm gonna do my hair and watch movie w Myra! Heh!

ttyl . xx

2011-05-04T09:37:00.000-07:00

I'm nervous,excited and scared! All these mixed feelings in me for my first time ever model store at other outlets. erghh . A told me that it's gonna be fine. I am so not cool when I'm havin' like some nervous break-down. not cool , I mean it.

&& I'm feelin' like I'm havin' all the time in the world just because for these 3 days, I'll be workin' erm " night shift" From 9.30 pm t 3.30 am like that ?

Oh god , please bless me tomorrow! xx

2011-05-02T19:28:00.000-07:00

I felt like a newbie and will be feeling it till I get the hang of it. I would appreciate it if some people have some understanding that it was my 2nd day doing it. I mean, you've been in my position before right? So, I bet you know how it feels. Don't be snobbish just because you now have a higher authority. I don't wish t have conflicts because I see you more than I see my own parents. Yes, I don't take things t heart but that does not mean you can simply show off your attitude. Just accept the fact that I can be better than you and you don't wanna lose everythin' you've worked for.

Just wait and see , okay ? Let time takes it's place and everythin' will fall into places just like how I've planned it.

2011-05-01T20:10:00.000-07:00

Sunday came too soon.

If I'm still schooling, I'll be having a long weekend . IF that is . Okay fine, I shall not look back. & starting from today, I won't get paid hourly w a $6.50 pay cheque per month instead I'll get a fixed pay w more benefits and an increment based on my performance. If not for me quiting and joining back the company because of my attachment, I've worked for almost 2 years this coming July 2011. I finally made up my mind. The pay might not be much but for someone like me w no house bills t pay or anythin' else , I think I'm perfectly fine. I shall consider myself lucky because some of my friends need t pay part of the house thingy bill thingy & the best part I still get my monthly allowance ! heh! One of the many reasons why I love being the only daughter .

P/S ; 5 more days t pay day

2011-04-28T20:02:00.000-07:00

Visual Merchandising

I'm not officially yet but I'm going t be ! My very first model store will be at KB from 4th May to 6th May , 9.30 pm to 3 am ? I'm kinda excited . I'm learning 2 new things,VM and Cashiering. Retailing is something I love. I know it has no future but at least I'm doing something right ? I know that I'm too young to work. It's not that I can't afford t pay for my private school it's just don't want t waste my dad's money knowing that I can't study anymore even though I get really jealous when my friends are talking about school. I can work at a better place w a better pay again I choose not t. I just like the idea of me doing something I like. I don't care if my family or what are against it or looking down on me . I've made up my mind, I'm choosing this path.

So anyways, the weekends are coming . && I've to go Vivo City for stock take at freakin' 7 in the morning tomorrow, totally not looking forward. I'll take it as just another experience thing. I managed t change my body system t sleep by 1 am or earlier than that. My life's back on track. I mean, I should learn t adapt w the changes around me. I'm tired of being sad anymore. The past is already passed. I'm not lookin' back. Now, whatever I do , I'm pretty sure I'm confident w it. I shall try not t be as fickle minded as ever. TRYING.

I'm sorry lah if my blog bore you. I just have nothing t talk about besides work stuffs. Social life is already down the drain. I can't believe that I have t think twice whenever my friends ask me t club. My girls are already hating me for countlessly ditching em'. omggg.

2011-04-26T20:11:00.000-07:00

Saturday's shopping was really satisfying. I got the stuffs that I wanted. I got myself TS hosieries , TS totebag (it's like a collection thingy for me , it's cheap also!) TS shades. & sandals. with nothing more than a 100 dollars. I wanted to get some bottoms but we had no size. pathetic much. tsk. I shall wait for pay day and make a date w any of my girlfriends t shop. Heh! I'm thinking of askin' either my bestfriend or Dewi W'nizah. It's really hard to have a proper date w my bestfriend when we both are working at the same place.

I wonder why in the world did I agreed w Faz to watched Scream 4. I'm not a huge fan of horror movies or anything got to do with suspend. I think I can just like die in the cinema from a heart attack. The suspend nearly killed me. Well, I have to say that the movie was great ? It's somehow unpredictable. Erm . I'll give it 4/5 ? Because your eyes will be glued on the screen and you won't even want to move an inch! I swear. For me that is. hehh .

It wasn't a mundane Monday. Scream 4 was at the Grand Cathay with Faz. We had popcorns and B&J's! Nyummeh . & when I felt like going for last minute shisha, I called up the boys and we all met up at Arab Street at some place that I can't even pronounce nor can I spell it. It's more like "lepaking" session w em' boys. Honestly, I really miss going to school :( . Most of em' got into except the 3 of us. Well, serve me right. I do hope we all still keep in touch! It's gonna be hard for me because of my hectic working schedule. fingers crossed*

xx

2011-04-24T21:09:00.000-07:00

Feels like mother and daughter time.

I'm over at granny's. I've been away from home for almost a week already. My clothes are very limited here. I wear pretty much the same damn thing everyday. && I haven't been talking t my own mother. I didn't even reply t any of her text messages. No worries, I've been here the whole entire time. I'm too tired to even have a social life. I'll be going back t MP for a week because of my monthly allowance.

Later in the evening, I'll be out w mama for a mini retail therapy . At Tampines only! Ever since I started working here, the only place that I shop is only at my work place. Bad habit and it's not good! I swear. So, my mini retail therapy will be at my own outlet later. hehh hehh. It's like I already know what I want t buy and I cannot wait for pay day or allowance! Mama , please come home quick! ergh , she's out for high tea at Marina Mandarin till 5 pm . -____-'' tskk !

I shall youtube, eat , sleep and watch tv . ttyl . xx

2011-04-23T19:32:00.000-07:00

TSTMTO FASHION PARTY, APRIL 2011

favorites.

with cousin, Jasmine.

It was almost one hell of a week. The week's passed by so fast. In a few more days I'll get my allowance. ( yes , I'm 20 and working and I still get allowance.) & in 2 weeks time I'll get my pay! I really really hope it's above than what I expected. I'm in need of retail therapy, badly. & I need t start learning how t save. Yesterday's "Fashion Party" was madness. From 7pm till 9.30pm. I didn't stayed back t help them. HELL NO. I was too tired plus I did housekeeping all by myself the day before yesterday. So, I think I deserve a break. Well, if some people can just think about themselves, so can I :)

The promotion for this weekend is 40% off on your second piece purchased. So, if you're a Topshop shopper, hurry and start shopping now ! hehh hehh . I know that I'll be having mine tomorrow ! It's my off day and I asked mama t come shopping w me so she can pay for my stuffs. Believe it or not , I didn't get anythin' for this month.

So anyways, I was supposed t meet up w Marly and the girls at Soul last night but I was too tired and ended up sleeping close t midnight. Besides the fact that I'm broke, AGAIN. She's gonna kill me because I ditched her almost all the time. Sorry bbg, I'm really tired .

P/S ; I'm having 2 days off straight.

2011-04-18T06:59:00.000-07:00

You know, I really really hate making decisions. I mean, I am already so fickle minded like nobody's business. & now, I am really scared that I am making a bad choice. Well, first of all , it is my interest and the another one is that I really love what I am doing right now ? I mean not strongly in love w it but its pretty much content ? I am not so sure if I'm rushing into things or making harsh decisions or what.

It was quite a surprised for me. Because some waited for months and months t convert. & how long did I waited ? Ermm , a few weeks ?!?! Wish me luck , people !

2011-04-16T19:50:00.000-07:00

If only life is that simple. It's always so much easier said than done. I am very good at telling people what's right and wrong. Giving advises when I myself need some good advise because I don't use mine. Which sometimes I tell myself " speak for yourself , Shiela Halim ".

2011-04-15T18:34:00.000-07:00

HAVE A HAPPY HAPPY WEEKEND !

&& I'm looking forward t this weekends too. I'll be out w the boys for movies and erm pool or shisha . I'm missing em' much.

2011-04-14T05:35:00.000-07:00

I had the longest nap ever. I mean , more than 5 hours ?! Hell yeah , today's my off day . I got text messages/calls asking if I'm gg t Zouk tonight ? Erm , I'm not going . I just don't want nor do I feel like it . Sorry bbg's.

Everything and everybody is going haywire. I don't understand . I know how some people don't like some people. Well, you have t face it , last min changes are bound t happen. I mean, sometimes things just don't go as planned. HAVE YOU NOT AWARE OF THAT LINE ? SERIOUSLY ?! Everybody's schedule is affected. We all had t stayed back last night till 11pm . I was running like mad doing last min things because M asked me to . I don't hold grudges or what because it's nothing personal , it's work. It's not her fault that visitors are coming early in the morning. It's not anybody's fault that the shop was in a mess the next day and it happened that we're all short-handed . & it's not the part - timer's fault that shifts suddenly changed when nobody asked for it . She even said ; APRIL'S SCHEDULE WILL BE CHANGED WHEN NECESSARY . If you don't understand , it means LAST MIN CHANGES WILL OCCUR . -_______-"

I love everybody . But sometimes , don't take matter t personal until you have t give an attitude or what so ever towards the person who's not even at fault .

2011-04-12T04:46:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm not really having a good start for the week. For the past 2 days, I've been up extremely early than usual , like at 6.45 am ? & today was from one outlet and back t mine and was supposed t stayed back till 10 pm which was utterly crazy, I swear t god. I'll end up working for like err , 13 hours ? Halfway through, my body system was like falling apart already.

I really hope , I'm not lazy for tomorrow night since I won't be working the next day. It's just me being sooo fickle minded . ( I'll go if my friend's driving , if not I won't )

I'm turning in already . xx

extremely tired .

2011-04-10T08:04:00.000-07:00

Laid-back Sunday :)

Knowing that I am forever so fickle minded of a person, I decided t passed my Saturday night. ( my one and only morning shift btw ) Giving it a pass wasn't a bad idea. I had an impromptu dinner w I. & staying home on a Saturday night felt so good .

&& my v laid - back Sunday which I just had my Leigh and tanktop t Plaza Sing for a movie date w my bestfriend, Att Kelmari . We had popcorns and nachos and dinner was at Mos Burger. It was just us catching up because we can't really talk a lot at work. Hall Pass was the movie ! I'll give 4/5 ? I'm not a huge fan of comedy .

Oh, I have t report to work by 7.45 IN THE MORNING ! HOLY F*** . I don't even know if I can like ever wake up for tomorrow plus it's on a Monday . I'm turning in . xx

2011-04-09T15:51:00.000-07:00

& oh , have an awesome weekend. I know , I will . xx

2011-04-08T19:51:00.000-07:00

TGIF!

I'm totally looking forward for this weekend .

2011-04-07T18:55:00.000-07:00

I'm so caught up w work , I didn't even realized that the week is ending already.

My never ending medications. I took MC today . & yes , I'm at home doing nothing at all . I shall paint my nails, re-organize my stuffs. sleep all day ?

P/S : I do realize that I kept saying I've no life. Well, I miss social life . Spending time w my friends and simply doing nothing at all. Always having money in my wallet. Have no worries about anything. But, that's something I've yet t figure out because right now, I don't know what to do nor do I know where t go. I shall stop saying I've no life because I too get bored w it :D

2011-04-04T00:33:00.000-07:00

April's schedule turned out t be fine. Well, I can be like normal people and go out every Sunday. Not that I have an NS boyfriend or what but I'll figure out smth. Is is just me or do everyone else too get a permanent fixed off day for the whole month ?

Free movies , popcorns and drinks for err all the people who works in Wing Tai ? I went w Myra , Att Kelmari and Azar . BIG MAMA is way way ten times better than Sucker Punch ! After my doctor's appointment , I just slept the whole day and went out in the evening and here I am going t have an early night. See, I do not have a social life. I miss the times when we're so free and we don't need think about work and money. Not like I'm working for a living. I'm just working t kill time. ergh . This is saddening. I swear , I have issues w me turning 20 in a few months time . One more thing, I feel like I'm a full-timer when I'm just a part - timer . tsk.

2011-04-01T17:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL !!

FRIDAY NIGHT LIFE FOR ME TONIGHT .

xx

2011-03-31T09:30:00.000-07:00

Hello April , it's been a year since we last met . I missed you much . Be nice , okay ?

Results will be out at 2pm tomorrow. Nervous? Hell yeah . I've been waiting this day but it's like I'm not putting up hopes because err , I didn't worked hard enough. & what's done cannot be undone.

GOOD LUCK TO ALL MY CLASSMATES .

Last night's party was awesome w Myra and some friends too. I slept for like the whole day & head down t Pasir Ris Park for the class bbq . I didn't stayed over. I have work in the morning so I'm home early . xx

2011-03-29T19:04:00.000-07:00

As we grow older ..

We meet new people . People come and go . & The best thing is worth waiting for .

Working life is BORING. I work and work and work and work and work.

2011-03-27T08:42:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY ....

YOU'RE ORIGINAL, CANNOT BE REPLACE ♥

2011-03-25T19:35:00.000-07:00

So much for me wanting t stay home yesterday ! I did watched The Time Traveler's Wife and Valentine's Day at home though. I had an impromptu movie outing w R at The Grand Cathay. He said it was he's treat for dinner and movie. It was just movie and dinner like literally. I did reached home before mid-night. My next off day is like in 7 more days ? R said ; work is your life ! tskkk .

2/5 , yes the rating ! It's like a v bimbotic movie w v pretty girls looking all hot all the time and girls w wild imagination. I simply didn't like it.

2011-03-24T23:34:00.000-07:00

I'm spending my off day at home watching The Time Traveller's Wife on HBO ON DEMAND. I just don't feel like going out today. I'm just staying home :)

the best thing right now is that I see my bestfriend every single day. I hope it's not a bad idea. I hope we don't fight. Because people who see each other everyday will fight and break - up. tsk.

2011-03-23T21:23:00.000-07:00

I've overcome so many things. I'm stronger than ever. I do not want t be that little girl anymore. The little girl who's stuck in me who whines and cry everyday and night wanting everything t be perfect. Because I know that , nobody's perfect and nothing will ever go your way.

Do you people have plans for the future? I mean, you know what you wanna do ? What you want? Who you want t be ? Besides, getting married hoping and wanting t live happily ever after.

Let's just say; I shall stick w what I'm doing right now and see how things go next month.

2011-03-21T22:39:00.000-07:00

HELLO! I didn't tag along w them t the zoo :(

I'm stuck at granny's. Oh well , I'll find something t do tonight. && I wonder who's free ..

It's my off day , god damn it ! I wouldn't wanna sleep all day -___-

2011-03-20T19:22:00.000-07:00

Far East Movement Free Wired Tour

Wavehouse , 2011

It was an awesome threesome w two of my best pals. I'm really glad you had fun, bestfriend. Apologies for not having the time. I swear, working as a six days is god damn tiring. Well, not t the extend but like that's your life. work.home.sleep and it goes the same thing over and over again till god knows when. My off days seemed t be fixed not that I requested but it's like every Thursday. Okay, that's cool. I shall not complain. So far , I've not skipped work. ^_^

& you know, time really flies damn fast. Unlike last month, I was like complaining each and everyday wanting the time t just zoomed passed by me. & now in 5 days time I'm getting my allowance, tomorrow , I'll be heading t the Zoo w my classmates. Boy, I missed em' all. I miss watching movies! I used t like watch every week and now , I'm like just staying home and you-tubing. Sad or what sia. They say; people who stay up all night are lonely people. LOL. I don't think so lah .

Okay okay, I better get going . xx

2011-03-17T21:12:00.000-07:00

The mini - surprised for Att Kelmari , turned out fine :)

I MADE IT HAPPEN! Okay, wait. Iqbal and I , we made it happen!

I'll update, the soonest!

w poloroids and iphone pictures. Yeah , who cares right.

2011-03-15T19:04:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY ATT KELMARI ♥

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES AND DREAMS COME TRUE . I CAN'T BELIEVED WE'RE TURNING 20 ALREADY. I FEEL OLD BUT I THINK WE'RE NOT EVEN ACTING OUR AGE .

Thank you sweets , for always being there for me. We both shall be rich bummers till the end of time.

& anyways, I'm not so sure who's reading my blog but I do know I was told t be careful w my blogging. I won't say anythin' because I choose t tell the public and people are free t read and react any way they want :)

I feel like I spent too much time working. I don't even have time for my sexy tumblr. But hell yeah, I do love and enjoy working v much. I mean, sometimes it feels like I can just die but most of time , time really flies. Everybody is busy working also what, might as well work too right?

Shiela Halim's very extremely boring life .

2011-03-14T21:27:00.000-07:00

I'm actually having a cup coffee before heading t work.

Okay, to think of it right , if I don't get into any Polytechnic ( which I won't ) and if I do not want t take any private Diploma ( I just have no interest ) = I HAVE T WORK LIKE ALL THE OTHER ADULTS.

Which means, I HAVE NO LIFE :) Yeah , I know I have t stop saying that I've got no life. I do have, I'm still living and breathing and surviving in this very evil and cruel unfair world of mine which GOD HIMSELF enjoy seeing me being happy and unhappy and happy again. The ups and downs of life. I'm currently working as if I'm a full - timer except the fact that I'm payed hourly and also I don't do cashiering. Not much of a burden for me. Because of that , I'm just too tired t actually go out.

For now, I shall be useful bummer and earn some extra cash and live the life w my bestfriend!

At 18 . I became a big spender & now I'm turning 20 , I spent 100 dollars per week. Excluding my minor shopping and this and that. WOW , I think it's a little too much. Saving up is easier said than done. shessh!

I'm looking forward for the 17TH March :)

I'm currently at Bedok . I miss my grandmother so darn much :(

2011-03-12T17:35:00.000-08:00

My everyday expenses are killing me already. Having 50 dollars in your wallet is like never enough. So, I'm trying my best not t go out much everyday. That is why I'm working! & holy fuck , I'm gonna work for 7 days straight. I'm not complaining because people have done way way longer than that. But but it's been awhile since I've been extremely hard working. And by that, I mean going so into work and not having a social life. I used t be that type of a person when I was 17 years of age? Yeah, for my v first job working at the Airport. Not say that I'm very old now lah .

My blog is gonna be such a bore. I've been working for the past few days. I did pretty much nothing. I didn't even party even though I'm on afternoon shift the next day. I just didn't wanna tire myself. I do wanna have a social life. I'm just not very happy w the fact that every of my Saturdays are all afternoon and one Saturday off. ( even when I'm not a weekend-er ! ) I shall figure something out.

social life and working life = the life :)

2011-03-10T18:56:00.000-08:00

work starts today .

& when life starts t revolves around work , it gotta suck. If only life's a party. Well. mom's okay now . Slowly everthin' will fall back into their places. I promise t make time for loved ones and best of friends <3

2011-03-08T19:03:00.000-08:00

GET WELL SOON , MOMMY.

I know you're going through a lot right now . I'm sorry that things happen . I'm sorry if I don't show any of my emotional feelings t you. I know the space we have is huge. But I am perfectly aware that no matter what happens , you're still my one and only mother. I know sometimes I just hate you so much because it feels like we both come from two different world. take care :)

2011-03-07T00:55:00.000-08:00

I'll update as soon as tomorrow's paper finish !

Because you need your friends. We all may be busy w our own lives but if your friends are true, when you're down, they'll be there for you. I have my bestfriend, my girly , my sexy b's , my workmates , my closes and em' boys. Of course, my bestfriend has always been there for me and i'll try my best t be there for her too. No matter what happens, those who're true t you, they'll stay. I mean, I can't live w/out my friends. Even If I'm attached , I still make time for my friends. We're still young, settling down is a long way t go. Getting married is not a laughing matter. Obviously, when you're married you have t minimize most of your time outside because you have your own family and a husband and etc. But like I say; let's talk about it in 10, 15 years time ? I don't think so, I'll be blogging in the future also .

I know how much I dislike school. But you know what , school is fun! Way better than working life. You have holidays, you can sleep in class ,you can be a late comer many many times , break all the school rules and not get major punishment. You will have time for everythin'. Than, what's your teenage years for ? I've not officially graduated yet from Higher Nitec. But I've already completed my two years course. Some may say; education does not really matter . That's because you got lucky my dear. God bless you for having a beautiful life , okay ?

What's next for me ? I'll think about it , in about a month's time ? . Well , I won't say that I'm gonna rush but I sure do know that I do not wanna waste time. I'm getting older, you know. If I ever and it would be a huge miracle that I get into Poly than I shall just continue w school. If I am still interested in studying that is. If not, I'll get a stable job. Having a stable job does not make you successful by the way. It's just life , you need a stable job or else , you can just die. Really.