Pink Chanel I'm just like you

what's missing?
posted on Friday, February 1, 2013 at 12:34 AM | 0 cmnt/s

why do I always have to push someone away?
Someone who is most def not a jerk!
Someone who is not a true gentleman, 
But someone who is honest for showing me his true self.

 I had so much fun w you.
You bring me to places where I've never been to before.
You showed a lot of tender, loving and care.

 But somehow, I don't feel it right. 
Just yet, maybe? 
or is it me?

 Am I that choosy? I am choosy, I fall for the one who treats me the best.
Sadly, best is not everything.

He may not be the handsome man in e world.
He may not be the brightest, you ever seen. 

 But let me tell you, for he is everything I want.
Not the time yet. Not now maybe later.

 For now, I'm gonna enjoy our "honeymoon"period. 
Not together as a couple but very close like we're together.

I want something Forever. 
In fact, I want more than Forever.
Can I get what I want? 
I always get what I want. 

 Dear, god. 
Listen to me. Listen to me. Listen to me.


RWS!
posted on Tuesday, January 29, 2013 at 1:03 AM | 0 cmnt/s






Oh, I felt like a Tourist for a day! My BFF just came back from Msia for a few days and was begging me like crazy t spend e time w her at RWS. We try to do catching up on whatsapp or meet-up(s) whenever she is here. & hell, we had tons of fun. 

 It was Atikah, Amad Firzo and I! Just the three of us! Though, I went there like 3 days before I went w them both. But nevermind. Can you tell from our happy faces? 

 xo

life as we know it!
posted on Monday, January 21, 2013 at 1:55 AM | 0 cmnt/s

Well, let's just say, erm my life isn't that happening.
Define happening? You go figure!
Ever since I started working, I'm always pre-occupied w work load during e day.
& in the evenings, I'll be out and about somewhere w whoever.

Right now, I'm just having one day job (which I am turning it into a career)
I just need t work hard for my list of 2013.

As much as I want to have a boyfriend. 
Like it would be great t have someone who knows you more than yourself even, sometimes.
Having someone to talk about things/life/shit and all you've gone through the day.
Yeah, I am some sort of seeing somebody right now. 
But, I just don't want t rush into things, you know.
I wouldn't want t be wasting a year or two or maybe less.
I would prefer being single and enjoying dates after dates rather than being in e wrong one.
Excuse me for wanting someone serious. 
I am not scared t get hurt.
I am not like having left over feelings, I just want the right one.

Let's just see what happen next, shall we?

I better pack my things and go off.
Birthday dinner w G. Her 23RD!




it's the festive season!
posted on Tuesday, December 25, 2012 at 7:29 AM | 0 cmnt/s


I would like t wish everybody who're celebrating x-mas, a MERRY XMAS you guys!
and of course a happy new year! 5 more days t 2013?! 


and every year, TSTMTO will have a mini xmas gift exchange after work. heh heh.
& every year, there will be different people. The picture on top are some from TS. 
Missing out my supervisor and a few others. 

I think this year, the staff put in a little bit of effort and bought something practical and useful fr everybody. Er, compared t the last one. Oh well, it's e thought that counts right?

Not only my TSTM had gift exchange, my day job had a mini xmas lunch too. I had tons and tons of chocolates and presents! There were turkey, chicken ham, cakes and pastries and chocolates. I've been eating a lot ever since everybody had their festive season mood kicked in! A box of cupcakes, a dozen of donuts, a tray of chocolates .. too many. I wonder why am I not sick yet. 

This was on e eve of xmas!


& you know wanna how was my weekend?  ...

I had a clean birthday party. I really did! I swear! I swear!



uh huh. My kind of Saturday after so long. God, I was so deprived. I had heavy make up on. My eyes weighed a ton. My heels was bloody high. 
Okay lah, I better not shiok sendiri.

The party was for this girl here, Fiza who just turned 20.


and that is her boyfriend. They're Iani's friends whom I met a couple of times.








The theme well, it's obvious :)









We ended up gossiping on e bed and went no where near e streets of CQ. 
I honestly had a good time. I needed a break from my hectic and rushing life I've been running day and night. Coming home just t sleep and waking up e next day rushing t work.

I'll be having my last off day tomorrow. Gonna spring clean my closet and just stay home w my cats.
Goodnight my dear readers. 

xoxo


posted on Sunday, December 16, 2012 at 6:05 AM | 0 cmnt/s


Exactly one year ago, I had all e energy and I was bloody hell active w my nightlife.
I could like go home and changed and get my ass t CQ.
&& worked morning e next very day. 
Indeed, I had v little sleep.

 Right now, my sleep is all I need and want.


nothing new.
posted on Saturday, December 15, 2012 at 6:39 AM | 0 cmnt/s

HI! I got home at about 7 p.m and I crashed onto bed right after shower.
Of course, I would love t continue sleeping but I wouldn't want t be up at 5 in e morning.

We'll be moving next year, early Jan.
Initially, we were planing fr e East side but now we'll be going t the North side instead.
According, the old man it's for the "change of wind".
I think it's gonna be somehow a culture shock fr me. HAHA. Yeah, wtf right?
I've been living here fr like almost all my life.
Moving into a different environment  is pretty scary.  
I don't like t step out from my comfort zone.
In case you haven't realized, I've been working at TS fr almost 3yrs already.
AT THE SAME BLOODY OUTLET :D :D

It's already middle of Dec, so I guess I'll be looking forward.
New year, new house? I  never moved before.

And and I have been doing some thinking and calculating, erm.
I might just errr, quit my weekend job?
Yeah, transportation fare will be hell I tell you! 
I don't wish t spend more than 100 dollars fr bus fare.

 New challenge fr me next year will be not shopping fr TWO MONTHS!
I have never gone a week w/out buying anything.
God bless me for that.

 Also, a new lifestyle. I'm glad I managed t reject my girls fr nightlife.
I'm gonna try going fr a morning run.
I HAVE NEVER GO JOGGING EVER BEFORE.
I've wrote down some tips.
Wish me luck for that too.

Okay lah, I think I'm gonna head t bed AGAIN.
nights! xo

cause I am forever fickle minded.
posted on Monday, December 10, 2012 at 8:01 AM | 0 cmnt/s

I don't know about any of you but I am getting 3days leave.
Ah, yes. 3 days leave for my day job.
Xmas eve, Xmas Day and the day aft xmas :)

 I am totally looking forward fr my long damn weekends.
Okay fine,not really since I'm always working on weekends.
Then again, the day aft Sunday Morning shift, I'll be free till Weds.

 Yah, I do have e urge t work on my leave days.
We shall see okay? Not everyday, I can bum at home.
I don't mind working on e eve and xmas day itself lah.
Then, the day aft xmas can rest already.
I'll ask M first thing when e store opens tomorrow.

oops I did it again?
posted on Tuesday, December 4, 2012 at 8:33 AM | 0 cmnt/s

I really don't know.
I have t give someone a chance.
When feelings starts t grow, I push em' away.
And oh, they are all nice people. 
Well at least I think they are. 

 I choose t go out w who I want.
I choose only e best.
I choose e one who treats me right.

Too bad, they all don't feel right at all.
GEEES. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG W ME?

The first few dates are always e best aren't they?
They will do whatever they can t win your heart.

I don't want t be some emotional bastard.
I don't want t sound like some kind single loser.
But hey, I am really content and happy w what I am doing now.
I guess it's not the time yet.

Getting a boyfriend is seriously not part of my 2013 list.
When it happens, it happens.
When it is yours, it will be yours.
Just like how no one can stop e rain when it is going t rain.

 I better get some sleep now. 
I'm working in a office and my time is so good, I tell you. 

 Goodnight, lovely.
xoxo

The past will always haunt you.
posted on at 12:25 AM | 0 cmnt/s

You see, I am the kind of person that don't really like t look what's behind me.
I prefer it t be the in e past and not do anything about it.
I don't even want t know or have any related or mutual friends or connection w anybody.
I choose not t care and not t know about it. 
Because darling, in my world my past is my past. 
People who left me are dead and gone.
I treat em' like the non-existence.

 Trust me, it has nothing t do w jealousy. 
I am disgusted for what I have done. And can do nothing about it.
Everybody was once a fool once or twice before.
Mistakes made, lessons learnt. 

 I have enough of trusting any humans on earth.
They give me no damn good reason why I should trust em'
All I get is evidence and proof that people just cannot be trusted.
Be in a boy or a girl. 
In this world baby, it's a dog eat dog kind of world.

 My expectations are really bloody sky high now.
I don't listen t cheap words w no actions.
No boy's cry can pull me down.

 & I am doing good myself too. Thank you.
I have yet t again know what I want but I am pretty sure that I'm in e right path.
and I am thankful for the people around me.

 I'm glad I'm gaining and learning a whole of things here in a new environment.
I also would love t get a degree after I finish my Diploma in General Studies.
(I am not saying I regretted taking a Dip in Retail Management.) 
I would be even happier if I can pass my papers for Insurance College.
Working double is not easy but I put my heart and soul into it. 
That's how I do it :)

DECEMBER ALREADY?!
posted on Friday, November 30, 2012 at 6:41 PM | 0 cmnt/s

Oh, hello December! 

Wow, this is amazing. Have a good December okay? I am in need of a new laptop and camera. 
Most def, my wishlist fr 2013. What's yours? Won't be blogging that much anyway :(

 Have a good happy holidays fr xmas and the new year! lots of love. xo
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